So hubs dad passed Wednesday night. It’s been sad. Lots of nights it has been mostly LM and me while hubs helps his mom and brother make preparations. The funeral is tomorrow. I don’t like funerals. I cry at stupid commercials on TV. People crying just get me going. I am nervous about tomorrow. I think I am going to hang back with LM and sneak out if I or he needs a break. I will make an appearance though.
Everyone around me is so excited about Christmas. I just need to get through this weekend and maybe I will, but this Christmas is going to suck. Everyone will be sad and focused on their dad/husband not being there.
People ask me if I am taking time off work and I tell them not much. Working is a good way to get away from all the surrounding sadness. Also with all the time it has just been me and LM I need a real break. So what I am thinking of doing is keeping him in daycare the whole time, but taking a day or two off just to myself. That may make me a bad mom, but I need a break. I need a fing nap and some time when I am not chasing after him.
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