IF is still there
I hope all of you are doing well. I thought about not writing this and sucking it up because it’s kinda dumb, but I figured it’s my blog and I’m going to write about it. Yes, I am pregnant and happily in the second trimester. However, I still have IF jealousy. One thing that really got to me this morning was when I was watching Go.od Mor.ning Ame.rica. They were doing the weather and there were people with posters around trying to get on tv. The weather guy goes to one woman with the sign and asks her what it says. She goes “Surprise, We are pregnant!!!” ugh. Another thing that has really been affecting me recently which is the main reason for this post is my main IF jealousy – twins. Let me preface this by saying I am totally happy for all of you who are pregnant and who are pregnant with twins after going through all this IF crap. I know how hard it is. When I started this journey I always said I wanted twins because that would mean you get two babies in one shot and could potentially be done with IF. I am totally happy to be pregnant and doing well with one, but it just seems like there have been a lot of “surprise, we are having twins!” announcements recently. I know being pregnant with twins is not all glorious – it’s scary, you get bigger, you may have more pregnancy symptoms and complications and it’s more money. However, I can’t help my brain. I’m trying really hard to get over it. I hope that you don’t take my jealousy the wrong way. I just wanted to get my feelings out so that maybe I could get them out of my head and just get over them.
Let me leave this entry on a happier note. I bought a few more pregnancy things this weekend while walking around two different malls. I got some short sleeve shirts and a pair of maternity shorts for my trip next week since it will be warm. I also bought some maternity underwear because my normal pairs are starting to get small and give me lots of wedgies lol. I also found this really cute sign that says “We loved you before you were born.” I teared up in the isle of the store when I found it.