I went to bed last night and woke up this morning thinking that it would be just like any other day, a boring normal day. It was a lot more interesting than that. No, I did not get a bfp.
This weekend the husband changed my car battery in my car because the oil change guy noticed that I needed it. Hubby said this is easy and he has done it before. My dad said the same thing. If they both have done it before it must be easy. We went to wal.mart, bought the battery and then put it in. I turned on my car and it started up so I was happy. This morning I started the car and it started like it was going to rev up, but then it stopped. I could not turn my car on. So no driving to work for me. Hubby said he couldn’t really fix it from work. He said that I could get a rental, but I feel like it is just something he can tighten or fix so I didn’t want to spend the money. Hopefully hubby will be able to fix it tonight when he comes home tonight. Luckily, my boss is really nice and I can work from home, logging into my files from home. So that is what I did.
While getting ready to work from home I checked out our stash of computer paper and I realized we only have a few pieces left. I called hubby and he said that is all we have. In order to do some of my work I have to print a form out and then fill it out. So no car and no paper meant that I walked to the grocery store to pick up some computer paper. I wore too heavy of a coat so when I got home I was sweaty.
My day went pretty well after that. I got a lot done. However, hubby’s printer is old and tends to take multiple sheets of paper when I’m only trying to print one sheet. So I have to keep a close eye on it. I printed one group of papers and filled them all out and then went back to print more. This time it took too many papers and I lost the paper somewhere in the printer. I tried pulling it out, but only ended up ripping part of it and the rest is stuck. I tried taking the printer apart and still could not get the paper out and now I can’t get his printer back together again. Luckily, my work day is almost over.
Fun day isn’t it? The interesting thing is that I do feel frustrated and it is growing with each thing, but the whole day does not have me completly undone like it would have in the past. I feel like I have dealt with so much more with IF and having things go wrong with it that I am actually doing ok. Just frustrated. So I guess that is one good thing about IF.
My 2ww is another story. Last night I started to dobut myself and feel like I was never going to get pregnant and I was going to watch everyone else achieve that goal. Today I am feeling a little better, but I am still feeling like this cycle will not be “the one.” I don’t know for sure and I still have a while to go, but ugh. This waiting sucks.
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