I added my stick counter back on my blog like I had last cycle. You can find it to the right of my entries. It was kind of fun to keep track of how many injections I did in one cycle. Although at the end when I got a bfn it was kind of depressing that I would have to do 53 shots all over again because it didn’t work. Hopefully I won’t have to think about that at the end of this cycle.
Yesterday I shared more with a friend about our IF stuff in a way. All of the people that I have told about our IF issues are my friends, but I don’t talk to on a daily basis because I only have contact with them on face.book or some other way. Well except for my parents and my co-worker. I guess it’s safe that way. This friend I see weekly and is in more contact with me than all the others. I had told her a year ago that we were trying, but that we were having some issues. Every once in a while she will ask how things are going, but we are normally around a group of people so I give her a short answer that doesn’t answer much. The other week I felt like sharing so I told her that we were doing injections in my stomach to keep trying. I didn’t get into it much.
Then today she came over and spent a bunch of time at our house. Since I had told her about the injections I kept some of our stuff out like our sharps box and such. At dinner she asked how injections were going and I told her. Husband was surprised, but when I told him that I told her he went with it. She ended up staying at our place later than I expected. She was still here when it was time for my injections. I put it off for a bit, but when she was still here I loaded up the needles and did the lupron and low dose hcg on my own. However, it’s been a while since I’ve done the follistim shot on my own so I asked husband to do it. I mentioned that it was shot time to her and I said that the follistim comes in a cool pen so I showed it to her. She heard the clicking so husband showed her how it works. I got my shot while she was right there. I hope that now that she sees what we are doing that she will understand a little more. It makes me a little happy to know that someone who I do see on a regular basis knows what is going on. While I love you guys it could be nice to have someone who I see regularly be a support. We will see how often she brings it up though. This morning I feel surprised at myself, that I let her see so much of what we were doing, but if you don’t tell anyone you don’t get support. So *fingers crossed*
I watched two episodes of Guil.iana and Bill yesterday and couldn’t help but get teary through out the whole thing. I knew what was coming and I felt so sad for them, yet felt all their emotions. I just saw the promo for the next episode and it looks like they are going to show them losing their baby. That is so sad. I really hope that if I ever manage to get pregnant that I don’t have a miscarriage.
The shots are going well. No real big bruises yet. Just little holes on my stomach. I actually felt a cramp near my ovary today and was excited. I hope good things are going on in there. I doubt much yet though since I’ve only been stimming for two days so far.
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