I never sleep well when my husband is out of town. I am always nervous something bad will happen like it did the first time my husband went out of town when we were first married. Basically someone stole my car from right outside of my house and I had a cop in my living room at 2am. I am very happy to say my car was still there this morning, but I slept like crap. I kept waking up. First I was hot, then I was cold, then hot again. I had the fan running in the bathroom with the door closed because it still smells like paint and that annoyed me. I woke up after the tv turned off so I turned the tv back on again, but then forgot to set the sleep timer again so that bothered me. Then my cat decided it was time to get up so he sat by my head and pawed me in the face until I got up. Yea fun. So I was tired today. Thankfully the husband comes home tonight so I will sleep better.
While I was already tired I got a little annoyed today. My boss came in just to chat informally. She starts telling us about her daughters birthday party and such and then keeps mentioning how at her next birthday she will be pregnant with her next baby. I was like ugh enough. Then she mentions another lady we work with sorta is pregnant. She is just starting to tell people. The kicker is this person just got married like three or four months ago. Seems like they probably got pregnant on their first try. So not fair. Makes me glad I don’t see her in the office all that often because I know I would end up staring at her belly. I guess in a way I’m glad I know before she tells me so I can know it’s coming and act happier if she tells me, which I’m not sure she will or not. Boss says she thought she might have issues getting pregnant because she has PCOS, but she is skinny so I doubt she has the normal PCOS issues.
So yea. I’m tired and cranky at the moment. I’m thinking of posting something on face.book along the lines of “Life isn’t fair sometimes” but I am not sure what sort of response I will get. Some people will be all oh what is wrong blah blah. I am just not sure if I want to call attention to myself or not. I am also friends with many family members on fb. Bleh
Ok I have to end this entry with something happy because all I have done this whole entry is whine….Hmm…. I only have one more work day this week and I bought my favorite salad for dinner. It’s an oriental chicken salad with fried chicken, Mandarin oranges, crunchy noodles and good dressing. Oh and hubs comes home tonight. Thank goodness.
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