So today is 8 dpo and I am still here. I really don’t have any symptoms at all except I’m starting to really break out on my face. That’s most likely the progesterone though. I keep thinking about all the IF girls who kept saying that they weren’t pregnant, didn’t feel anything, and then found out they were. Last night I could not sleep with lots of thoughts swirling around in my head. I was convinced that this cycle was a bust and very pissed. This cycle was the best I have ever had, if I can’t get pregnant with this, can I get pregnant?
This morning I’m feeling a little better, but still discouraged. I have started thinking about the next cycle. What do I want to do the next cycle? I’m not sure. Is it worth going through another cycle of doing the same thing even when I have done a bunch of injectable cycles? Though adding the lupron and the low dose hcg seemed to really help. The husband thinks that I should see if I can replicate this current cycle since I did so well. I am leaning towards that, but not looking forward to another 53 shots. I also wonder if I should just suck it up and do ivf. I’m scared though of ivf, of the egg retrieval especially, and a bit about the transfer. I am also scared of having that many follicles in me and higher doses of the medicine. I always thought that I am not getting pregnant because of a hormonal thing, because pcos screwed up my hormone levels. Maybe it is also something else. When you do your egg retrieval and wait three days or so to see what grade your eggs are does that tell you if you have an egg problem? How do you figure that out? I don’t know.
It’s time to get off the computer and go to work. I hope that I am able to stop thinking about my lack of symptoms or how I’m pretty sure this cycle is a bust. Hopefully I will be super productive at work and the day will pass quickly.
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