It’s always me
I went to the eye doctor again today for a follow up visit. Those who have been reading me for a while know that I have had eye issues lately on top of all my infertility crap. My eye doctor and a specialist I have been to a few times say I have Map-dot-fingerprint dystrophy, and an odd case at that. They say my eye issue doesn’t really follow the normal form of it and doesn’t seem to be responding to the drops at all. My vision in my affected eye (right one) is really blurry and sees really crappy. My left eye takes over for it and I see ok. Today my doctor says that I don’t really seem to be responding to the drops. It’s gotten a little better, but not that much. My vision is not improving. He says that I have superficial scars on my cornea and one thing to look into is that laser vision thing that people do when they don’t want to wear glasses. This flares up my anxiety with doctors and makes me not want to do it. Why do I always have to deal with all this crap? I am barely over 30, I”m not that old. I’m afraid to get old and see what more crap I have to deal with. Right now I feel like I just need to get through my sono and this cycle, and hsg next cycle before I can even think about having a procedure with lasers on my eyes. Have any of you guys had this procedure? I know I need to do some googling and I’m probably more emotional now since I just got home. Next time I see him (which isn’t until August) he is also going to have me try “hard” contacts to see if that corrects my vision any. I have never used contacts before, I always have had glasses, so I have no idea how these differ from normal contacts. More googling I suppose. So I guess I can get maybe two cycles done before I have to think about the laser thing. Hopefully.
It also doesn’t help that my body is gearing up for AF. I can feel her getting ready and I’m probably a bit more sensitive than normal. I have that feeling I get when she is starting to head my way and a bit of cramping here and again. I’m worried it’s going to be a heavy cycle because I had 6mm lining in my past cycle and never got a period and now I am on bc pills. So that should be fun.
Bleh. I’m going to try to avoid the situation and get some work done from home.
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