I had another monitoring appointment this morning. The lady who can always find my left ovary was doing the scans. I was happy about that. My lining was about the same as last time. She found my right one and my biggest one was 9 x 11 I think. That was the biggest of the bunch. I did have what looked like a bunch of grapes on the right side that were all smaller sized follicles grouped together. She scanned on my stomach to find my left one and pressed really hard. I think she said I have a bunch of really small ones on the right, maybe a 9mm one, but not much of anything. I’m kinda glad my right ovary seems to be the one with the dominantish folly this time. I wonder if the sperm can’t get to the left ovary because it’s so high up and in a weird place. Who knows.
When I got my call back they said I go back on Monday and that I am going up another click on Follistim. I think that takes me to 66. something. He really does take things slowly, but I guess that’s good. I wonder if that will allow me to finally try with two follicles for the first time ever. I see myself slowly going up a click and seeing him every two days or so until my follies really kick into gear. I wonder why I responded so quick last time. Maybe because my body had never had follistim before and was shocked into gear. I’m a little sad that everything is still really small, but I like that they can adjust the levels though to make my body work. I think that only having five days of a pill and then nothing else is not enough for my body. So we wait and see what two clicks does.
I have had something my RE said at my consult on friday stuck in my head and it is kinda bothering me. He said that I’m becoming a legend in his office. I don’t think he meant it in a good way. I asked my husband what he thought my RE meant by that and he said that he thinks he meant that they all know I have high anxiety and that the nurses know about it or have talked about it or something. I told my RE I don’t want to be a legend. I don’t want people talking about me and how much anxiety I have or what I can and can’t do. Now I feel like I’m going to be self conscious about how I act. Though, I can’t change how I act and who I am, so I guess if they are not liking it they can suck it.