Planning session Part 1
Today was a short day at work, but it felt like a long day. It started with a baseline appointment bright an early at 7:45am. I think I was one of the very first patients to get in there. Everything is quiet so we are ready to start tomorrow night with 50iu of Follistim again. I start tomorrow night and keep going through sunday night and then go back Monday morning for my first monitoring visit.
While I was there the nurse tells me that the way I heard the information from my patient coordinator is a little bit different. She says the RE wants to meet with me either in the middle of this cycle or after this one instead of it being my choice if I want to meet with him or not. That made me nervous. I know what is coming. He wants to put a cap on how many injectable cycles I’m going to do, to talk about doing the diagnostic tests/lap, and to talk about our next steps. That scared me this morning because I don’t think that the hubby and I are ready for IVF. It’s a lot of money and I don’t think I’m emotionally ready. I’m also scared of it. In addition, I will not be doing IVF until I can conquer those two tests – the sono and the hsg because I don’t see the point in spending boku bucks and not knowing if something is up. Some of you might say they don’t see the point in cycling now without those tests, but that was my choice.
I got out of my appointment with time to spare before work so I started googling on my ipod touch. I started reading about sono’s and they seem very similar to an iui. The only difference seems that one is injecting saline and the other one is injecting sperm. I’m sure there are small other differences, but you see my point. The first time when I was thinking about doing a sono was before I had ever had an internal ultrasound. I was scared and really nervous. However, now that I have completed five cycles I’ve become very good with internal ultrasounds and having people down there so I’m thinking I might do a little better. I can hope at least. So I started thinking. In googling I found that your supposed to have them after your period and before ovulation. So I called my RE and asked if I should have one of these this cycle to get it out of the way. Another reason I wanted to see if I could do it this cycle was because if I could tolerate it that means I could probably do the iui as well. I know it’s an easy procedure and you guys have had dozens, but for me it makes me nervy. Anyways – they called back and said to wait till I talk to my RE and see what our next steps were and that she didn’t want to interrupt this cycle. So no go on that right now.
I did however, have a conversation with the hubby when he got home. I was feeling down and like having kids was not in our future since we just finished one injectable cycle with a bfn, the RE is wanting to talk next steps already, and that we will not be doing ivf at least not now. I wanted to see what he wanted our next steps to be before we ever go talk to the RE. I did schedule our appointment for next friday so we will see how that goes. That will bring the entry planning session part 2.
Anyways – he said we have only done one cycle of injectables and it seemed to work well. He said I shouldn’t give up hope on that yet and asked if the odds go up each time you do an injectable cycle. I think so, but I don’t know what the numbers are. He asked me what the odds are on getting pregnant with injectables and I wasn’t sure. He said maybe I should focus on trying the easiest diagnostic test – the sono – and see if I can do it and how I do. If I do well then I can try the hsg with my extra courage. If I can’t do it he said that is ok too. He said he thinks we should at least do three to four injectable cycles, but I’m not sure what the norm is. I’ll have to ask my RE. We didn’t really come to an ultimatum. He basically said we will try this cycle, possibly do a diagnostic test, and then see where we are and plan again. It’s hard to leave it just at that because I am a planner and want to know how we are going to get to our goal if injectables don’t work, but I guess we aren’t there yet so I don’t need to freak out as much just yet. I’m sure that won’t stop me though.
Also, thank you all for your great comments on my last entry. You all gave me a lot of things to think about and ponder. Question though – a lot of you mentioned your cervical mucus and how that prevented you from getting pregnant. How did you know your not getting pregnant because of your cervical mucus? I know very little about my cervical mucus. I haven’t really checked, but I don’t think I have that much. I googled one page on checking it, but it sounded kinda gross and I clicked off. Are there ways of figuring this out without having to examine it?
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