I was going to work from home today, but it wasn’t bad out so I went to work and worked a full day. It’s still only flurrying. It’s supposed to get worse later tonight, but now only supposed to get around 6 inches maybe. We will see. I’m not really in the blogging/commenting mood at the moment, but I wanted to record this in case I forget and to update you guys if you wanted to know. AF is still not here – yes I know I’m getting boring. On the way home I bought a pregnancy test and tested and of course it was negative. I knew it was going to be negative yet afterwards I still feel sad and down. Dumb hormones and bfn. Maybe she will still show up because of my hormones, but I doubt it.
I was going to wait until friday to call and see what I am supposed to do next. Instead I called this afternoon and my patient coordinator said that if she doesn’t show by sunday that I should come in on Monday for a quant p4 which is basically a beta. I told her I knew it was going to be negative, I just tested. She said I still had to do it. After that I will sit down with a nurse for next steps. Bleh. Why can’t they just give me provera? Maybe my levels will be so low that they will just let me start my cycle already. Doubt it, but can wish. Knowing my schedule it looks like I won’t get to meet with that nurse until tuesday morning unless I can get an appointment after work. Doubt it though. Gah I hate waiting.
All this crap isn’t fair. I’m starting to get jealous of people who get to have monitoring appointments. People who are moving forward. I hate being stuck in this place. It’s driving me nuts.
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