Still emotional/hormonal, but managing to keep it in check. Work was nice today in that I only worked 4 and a half hours because I had to leave for my second eye appointment. I had a routine eye exam last week and the regular eye doctor noticed the vision in my one eye was down by a lot and noticed spots on my cornea. So I went back today to see the cornea specialist who I had been seeing last year for something similar. When he looked at my eye he says, “Interesting.” I was like uhm, what? He said, “I’ve never seen this before, Interesting.” Not what I want to hear. He did his eye exam and said that what I had last year is different than this year and he hasn’t seen what I have before. He said it’s not one thing because it’s only affecting one eye and it’s not this other thing because it doesn’t do something else. So in the end he is referring me to an eye hospital in the big city in the next state over. This I’m not happy about because I don’t like driving to this big city. Luckily I scheduled it on a friday I have off as does my husband. However, it scares me that the cornea specialist doesn’t know what it is. I asked about steroid drops he said he didn’t think that they would fix them and that maybe they would need surgery, he didn’t know. That freaked the heck out of me. I DO NOT WANT SURGERY. Gah. I am so sick of my body screwing things up so they don’t work right. Why can’t I be normal?
So in the end, my eye appointment is in the middle of march. I am sure I will obsess until then about having to have surgery and losing my eye sight. Hopefully they will be like oh it’s this thing and all you have to do is take drops. Please please be something small. I’m so sick of this crap.
The only cool thing was that when looking up fertility meds that I was on my eye doctor pulled out his i.p.hone and used an ap.p to look them up. That upped his cool factor. Though I am pretty sure he just broke some hippa laws. His voice recorder thing was out of batteries so he went up front to charge it where patients are greeted. There was no other patients in the lobby, but he stood there in the middle of the front desk with his assistant and a receptionist right there leaving himself a note including my full name, my eye issues, and that I was on fertility meds. Fun stuff.
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