I’m a tortoise
I must be a tortoise. My body is always so slow. I went in today and got my blood drawn and it hurt. It hurt to bend my arm for a little bit afterward. Not fun. I was looking forward to my scan, but then again I wasn’t. I was excited to see what was up, but I had been having stomach issues all morning. Not fun. Luckily, nothing bad happened while she was doing the scan. She didn’t really find anything though. She said I had a couple of small ones (didn’t tell me the size per usual) and that it was too early in my cycle to tell anything. Gah. I was annoyed. I was hoping that the bc/metformin/clomid combo would make things hurry up. I guess my body is just a tortoise.
After I left I was feeling down and sad. I was thinking what if my last cycle where I did get to try was a fluke? What if it doesn’t happen again and then I have to move onto injectables? Not a happy me. My stomach was still giving me issues so I decided to take an immodium before I went to volunteering. I couldn’t get the packaging open so I ended breaking the pill in half when trying to get it out. I know I’ve read somewhere that your not suposed to do that, but oh well it happened. I tried taking it in the main lobby and had a really hard time getitng it down. Blech.
The first part of volunteering I felt yucky, but after a bit I started to feel better again and I did well with my volunteering work. I’m going to add another day during the week so I don’t get so bored the second half of the week. I also started tihnking about my last cycle when it did work. I know it took a really long time. I looked back at what I wrote in that cycle (I was so glad to be able to do that, yea for blogging) and found that I had a similar situation last time. The first two monitoring visits there wasn’t much of anything, very small follicles, me feeling sad and wondering if they would cancel my cycle and tell me I was clomid resistant. But in the end as we know I did get to try. So maybe it will just take forever again. Maybe. I hope. I hate having to be strung along through appointment to appointment wondering what is up. Guess I have to suck it up. My next appointment is this coming Monday morning. So I guess we will see what is up then.
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